Friday, June 11, 2010

June 11, 2010

June 20th will mark our first wedding anniversary and Nate asked me last night what I would like as a an anniversary gift and I told him that BFP :) He asked if we hit the mark this month and I showed him my FF chart and it gave us a high reading. Fingers crossed! Other than that I just want to spend the day together. Obviously it's Father's Day as well so I am sure we will see our fathers.

What's new? Hmmm my younger cousin's girlfriend is still refusing to go to the doctors to confirm her pregnancy and get checked but I suppose that really isn't my business. I am still upset about it. There were 2 new babies born to friends on the 6th and 7th, both boys. Plus one of my classmates from high school is due any day now. Babies, babies, babies!!! There are two ladies who I work with which are expecting, one in September and the other in December.

Other than that, it's suppose to be a beautiful day!!!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Nothing too exciting

June 1,2010- A rainy June day in Upstate New York. Sitting here thinking about life, family, and everyday events. My life in a whole is amazing and even though I may complain about little things, it's great. I have a loving husband who is always there for me, in good and bad. He is understanding, loving, has an amazing sense of humor, and is such a handsome man. I couldn't have gotten any luckier! The TTC process is pulling us closer together, we talk about everything that is going on with our lives and he has opened up to me what he is really thinking and how he feels when AF shows or I get a BFN. I know men have emotions too, but him being a funeral director, he doesn't always show his.

My family is awesome but I am sick and tired of them always asking if I am pregnant. It kills me to say no but with a smile I say "God hasn't blessed us yet but soon enough he will."

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

May 26, 2010

It has been a long time since I have written on here. Many things have happened in the past 2 months. No baby yet. However, we found out that my baby cousin who is 19 and his gf who is 18 are expecting in November. I won't lie, I balled like a baby when I found out. It isn't fair, Nate and I are married and have been together for a very long time, they haven't even been together for a year....why them and not us? I quickly realized that God thought it was thier time and our time will come. I was visiting family in Florida this past week and I realized that family is everything. My aunt who is 41 was recently diagnosed with bone cancer and is undergoing chemo, it was so nice to spend some time with her and she will be up to visit next month.

I am truly greatful for my husband, through thick and thin he is always on my side. He tells me everything will work out and our time will come. I have to say, I have truly enjoyed our first year of marraige, just the two of us and we are ready for the next chapter.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Ok so it's officailly.....

my longest cycle ever! CD 36 is here. I am getting frustrated because AF is no where in sight :( I just wish the miscarraige wouldn't have screwed with my cycle sooo much! Why me??? I don't understand how out of all of my cousins, I am the one who had the miscarraige. The other 3 out of 11 had healthy, normal pregnancies and got pregnant within 3 months of trying, 1 was one month of trying and another wasn't trying. When people say "You're trying to hard, relax and let it happen." Well if I didn't know what I O, or how long my luteal phase is, then how can I relax and try?

Ok so it's Saturday and the first day of Spring! Woohoo! I love spring, it's one season closer to summer and nice warm weather! Flip flops and tank tops. Mmmmm I can smell summer!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Ok. I will start this blog with a little background information about myself and my wonderful husband. My name is Kimberly but I prefer Kim, I am 23 years old and I like to talk. I met my husband, Nathan (Nate) when I was 12. I was dared by my best friend at the time to turn around and ask the first boy I saw to the dance on Friday night, so I did. I turned around and this little red headed boy was sitting behind me, I tapped him on the shoulder and I introduced myself, "Hi my name is Kim and I was wondering if you had a date for the dance on Friday" He responded "I'm Nate and no, want to go with me?" That was that. We dated for 2 years and then he broke up with me. We remained best friends throughout high school and in those 4 years we dated for another 2. We talked all the time and I guess you could say he was my run to guy, no matter what I had to day or ask, he was always there. Always my rock, my shoulder to cry on. Well the summer before my junior year of high school, we dtd for the first time, and yes I was his first. From the first time I saw him that day in the cafeteria, I knew that I would marry him. We began dating again on November 3, 2006 and have been together since. We were engaged on July 20, 2007 and married June 20, 2009. Starting a family was something we had always talked about and we both wanted, we just didn't know when. July 31, 2009 was the day I took my last BCP. We have been trying since. Here it is March 2010 and still not pregnant. We had a chemical pregnancy in February 2010 and decided that it would not get us down. I wanted to start a blog because it makes me feel better to write my emotions and what I am thinking/dealing with down. Thanks for reading!!